01. So
Much For The Afterglow
02. Everything
To Everyone
03. Ataraxia
04. Normal
Like You
05. I
Will Buy You A New Life
06. Father
Of Mine
07. One
Hit Wonder
08. El
Distorto De Melodica
09. Amphetamine
10.
White Men In Black Suits
11.
Sunflowers
12.
Why I Don't Believe In God
13.
Like A California King
(hidden
song) Hating You For Christmas
So Much for the Afterglow
This is a song about Susan, this is a
song about the girl next door.
This is a song about the everyday occurances
that make you feel like letting go.
Yes, I think we got a problem. So much
for the afterglow.
This is a song about Susan, this is a
song about the way things are.
This is a song about the scary things
you see from the corner of your eyes.
Don't you wonder why?
We never talk about the future, we never
talk about the past anymore.
We never ask ourselves the questions to
the answers that nobody even wants to know.
I guess the honeymoon is over, so much
for the afterglow.
I remember we could talk about anything.
I remember when we used to want to hang out.
I remember, I remember, I remember.
We never talk about the future, we never
talk about the past anymore.
We never ask ourselves the questions to
the answers that nobody needs to know.
Oh well, oh well, oh well. So much for
the afterglow.
Yes, I guess we need the drama. So much
for the afterglow.
Everything To Everyone
You put yourself in stupid places, yes,
I think you know it's true.
Situations where it's easy to look down
on you.
I think you like to be the victim, I think
you like to be in pain,
I think you make yourself a victim almost
every single day.
You do what you do, you say what you say.
You try to be everything to everyone.
You know all the right people, you play
all the right games.
You always try to be everything to everyone.
Yeah, you do it again. You always do it
again.
You say they taught you how to read and
write, they taught you how to count.
I say they taught you how to buy and sell
your own body by the pound.
I think you like to be the simple toy,
I think you love to play the clown.
I think you are blind to the fact that
the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down.
You do what you do, you say what you say.
You always try to be everything to everyone.
You know all the right people, you play
all the right games.
You always try to be everything to everyone.
Spin around and fall down, do it again.
You stumble and you fall.
Yeah why won't you ever learn? Spin around
and fall down, do it again.
You stumble and you fall. I wonder if
you will ever learn. Why won't you ever learn?
Come on now, do that stupid dance for
me. (Come on, come on, dance for me.)
You do what they tell you to do, you say
what they say.
You try to be everything to everyone.
You jump through the big hoop, you play
all the right games.
You try to be everything to everyone.
Spin around and fall down, do it again.
You stumble and you fall. Yeah, you do
it again.
Spin around and fall down, do it again.
You stumble and you fall . . .
Normal Like You
They said you called me maybe yesterday.
I don't even have the strength to pick
up the phone.
You wouldn't even know me since you went
away. The prozac doesn't do it for me anymore.
You ought to take your medication everyday.
Be a good dog, live life in a wonderful
way.
Tell me why, you want to be blind. I don't
want to be normal like you. I know now.
Everyday I get closer to the place inside
where I can be normal too.
I heard those stupid people talk about
you again.
I just have to laugh to keep from hurting
bad.
Their simple minds just cannot seem to
understand you are neurotic and depressed,
it doesn't mean that you're sad.
you walk around oblivious to everything.
You wear that party dress and mascara
like you're queen for the day.
Tell me why, you want to be blind. I don't
want to be normal like you. I know now.
Everyday I get closer to the place inside
where I can be normal too.
I will never be normal like you.
You walk around oblivious to everyone.
I see you walking slow and simple underneath
the big, black sun.
Tell me why, you want to be blind. I don't
want to be normal like you. I know now.
Everyday I get closer to the place inside
where I can be complacent.
I get closer to the place inside where
I can be sedated.
I get closer to the place inside where
I can be normal too.
Where I can be normal like you.
Maybe normal like you.
I can be normal like you.
I Will Buy You A New Life
Here is the money that I owe you, so you
can pay the bills.
I will give you more when I get paid again.
I hate those people who love to tell you
money is the root of all that kills.
They have never been poor, they have never
had the joy of a welfare Christmas.
I know we will never look back.
You say you wake up crying. Yes, and you
don't know why.
You get up and you go lay down inside
my baby's room.
I guess I'm doing OK. I moved in with
the strangest guy.
Can you believe he actually thinks that
I am really alive?
I will buy you a garden where your flowers
can bloom.
I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny
and new.
I will buy you that big house way up in
the west hills.
I will buy you a new life.
Yes, I will.
Yes, I know about that other guy. The handsome
man with athletic thighs.
I know about all the times before with
that obsessive little rich boy.
They might make you think you're happy.
Yeah, maybe for a minute or two.
They can't make you laugh. No they can't
make you feel the way that I do.
I will buy you a garden where your flowers
can bloom.
I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny
and new.
I will buy you that big house way up in
the west hills.
I will buy you a new life.
I know we can never look back.
Will you please let me stay the night?
No one will ever know.
I will buy you a garden where your flowers
can bloom.
I will buy you a new car, perfect shiny
and new.
I will buy you that big house way up in
the west hills.
I will buy you a new life. I will buy
you a new life.
Father Of Mine
Father of mine,
tell me where have you been?
You know I just closed my eyes my whole
world disappeared.
Father of mine, take me back to the day.
When I was still your golden boy back
before you went away.
I remember blue skies, walking the block.
I loved it when you held me high, I loved
to hear you talk.
You would take me to the movie. You would
take me to the beach.
You would take me to a place inside that
is so hard to reach.
Father of mine, tell me where did you go?
You had the world inside your hand but
you did not seem to know.
Father of mine, tell me what do you see,
when you look back at your wasted life and you don't see me?
I was ten years old doing all that I could.
It wasn't easy for me to be a scared white
boy in a black neighborhood.
Sometimes you would send me a birthday
card with a five dollar bill.
I never understood you then and I guess
I never will.
Daddy gave me a name then he walked away.
My dad he gave me a name.
Father of mine, tell me where have you
been?
I just closed my eyes and the world disappeared.
Father of mine, tell me how do you sleep
with the children you abandoned and the wife I saw you beat.
I will never be safe. I will never be
sane. I will always be weird inside, I will always be lame.
Now I am a grown man with a child of my
own,
and I swear I'm not gonna let her know
all the pain I have known.
Then he walked away. Daddy gave me a name.
My dad he dave me a name. Then he walked
away.
One Hit Wonder
(Bigger, and badder, and better than you.)
Loopy says he likes it up on top.
Yes, he knows if he ever lets go the pretty
machine will swallow him whole.
He has no fear. He has no sense of shame.
He will not stop until everybody everywhere
wants to know his name.
The one hit wonder, he likes the big time.
He says he wants to live the kind of life
that will make the folks back home all bitch and whine.
He knows if he ever even gets the chance
he'd sell his soul to make the monster dance.
They can't hurt you unless you let them.
Loopy says he sure does like the good life.
Yes, he knows all those women who scheme
are just pretty pictures in the pretty machine.
He knows if he ever even gets to try. He
will bite down hard to make the monster cry.
He knows if he ever even gets the chance
he'd sell his soul to make the monster dance.
They can't hurt you unless you let them.
I will say it again. They will not hurt you unless you let them.
Loopy says he likes it up on top, he prays
to God and hopes and he hopes like hell
that the pretty machine, they will never
fail.
He has no fear, he doesn't really even
have the time.
He knows that the world is in love with
the pretty machine.
Oh yeah . . . the pretty machine.
The one hit wonder, he likes the big time.
He says he wants to live the kind of life
that will make the folks back home scream, bitch and whine.
He knows if he ever gets to try, he'll
bite down hard to make the monster cry.
He knows if he ever even gets the chance,
he'll sell his soul to make the monster dance.
He knows if he ever even gets to play,
he will stomp like God to make the monster say.
"They can't hurt you unless you let them.
They cannot hurt you unless you let them."
El Distorto De Melodica (Instrumental)
Amphetamine
She came out West to find the sun.
She lost her name but found a new one.
Amy goes to school all day, but at night
in the neighborhood they call her Amphetamine.
She is perfect in that fucked up way that
all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days.
She looks like a teenage anthem.
She looks like she used to be happy with
the girl inside.
Yeah, she looks so poor sometimes.
She has that super pale skin and those
soft green eyes.
She looks like she could have been happy
in better life.
She came out West just to break away clean
from her family and friends and a little girl's dream.
All she wants to do every night is to
sit beside my window and listen to the sirens.
She is perfect in that fucked up way that all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days. She looks like a teenage anthem and she looks like should have been happy in another life. In another life.
She came out West just to break the spell
after three long years in a marriage from hell.
Six months clean living sober and right.
The doctors tell her everything will be alright.
Yeah, you just take your pill and everything
will be alright.
She looks like a teenage anthem.
She looks like a magazine girl.
She looks like a teenage anthem,
like she used to be happy in another world.
She looks like a teenage anthem. She is
happy with the girl inside.
She looks like a teenage anthem, and she
looks like she could have been happy in another life.
In another life.
Happy in another life.
Met her at a party and I took her home.
She is the saddest girl that I have ever
known.
She wakes me up in the middle of the night
just to tell me everything will be alright.
Amy smiles at me and tells me everything
will be alright.
I tell myself the same damn thing. Everyday.
Everything will be alright.
White Men In Black Suits
I am just a boy working in a record store.
Yes, I moved to San Francisco just to
see what I could be.
I am a loser geek, crazy with an evil
streak. Yes, I do believe there is a violent thing inside of me.
She is just a girl, she is doing what
she can.
She dances topless when she's not playing
in her band.
Such a pretty girl, happy in an ugly place.
Watching all the pretty people doing lots
of ugly things.
I think it's getting better for the two
of us. Yes, I think it's getting better almost everyday.
I could give a damn for what those people
say.
All I want to do is lose myself in your
room.
All you want is just a slow fuck in the
afternoon.
I still see those scary guys when I am
all alone at night.
I kiss the ring you gave me, then I swing
with all my might.
I think it's getting better for the two
of us.
I think it's getting easier for you and
me to agree that the white men in the black suits, they are diminishing.
Yes, I think they are diminishing.
Yes, I think that they diminish you, and
they diminish me. I think they are diminishing.
You know sometimes I hear those people say . . .
Yeah, she takes a bus over to the northside
of the city.
She goes to work, stripping for the rich
white men.
All the words they give her make her feel
so soft and pretty.
She wears them but they never ever seem
to fit.
Yes, I think it's getting better for the
two of us.
I think it's getting better in the worst
way.
I refuse to be afraid of almost anyone.
Afraid of all the things they do, or the
words that they say.
Let's live the way we want to live and
hope they go away. I really hope they go away.
I really hope they find a nice place.
I hope they find it somewhere. I hope they go away.
I can still hear all the people say . . .
Sunflowers
I know where you go when you want to fall.
Why do you want to be broken?
I know where you go when you want to fall.
Yes, your friends they tell me everything.
Yes, I know where you go. Yes, I know
what you do.
Yes, I know the awful things you say and
who you say them to.
Yes, I know where you go. Yes, I know
what you do.
I know how you feel. You get crazy inside.
They say it runs in the family.
I know just how you feel when you get
crazy inside.
Your mom she said that you are just like
me.
I can see it in your eyes.
I can see your shaky hands.
I think you think I'm stupid. You don't
think I understand.
I see you and I see myself when I was
a younger man.
When you were a child, you were happy and
free. You were my reason to live.
I would die when you smiled at me.
I can still see you. I remember you painting
sunflowers in your room.
I know where you go when you want to fall.
Hey, don't you want to be happy?
I know where you go when you want to fall.
Your useless friends they tell me everything.
I see you run around in circles,
I see you digging your own hole.
I see you fight the fights
you just can't win.
I see you losing self-control.
What it does to me deep down inside I
hope you will never know.
When you were a child, you were happy and
free. You were my reason to live.
I would die when you smiled at me.
I can still see you painting flowers on
the wall.
I remember you happy, I remember it all.
Sunflowers in your room.
All I want to remember, pretty pictures
on the wall.
I remember you happy, I remember it all.
All I want to remember,
sunflowers in your room.
Sunflowers in your room.
Why I Don't Believe In
God
I heard the truth about you
and it doesn't really read at all. Like
the whipping stick you raised me with.
A scared woman in a private hell.
Hushed voice like electric bells.
Strange talk abut Edgar Casey and the
long lame walk of the dark 70's.
I heard the truth about you. Yeah, you.
Mama, they woke me up.
I was deep in an idiot sleep.
I was just eight years old, heard big
words with a horrible sound.
Why'd they have to call my school? Tell
me my mother had a nervous breakdown.
I wished I believed like you do. Yeah,
you.
In the myth of a merciful god,
in the myth of a heaven and hell.
I hear the voices you hear sometimes.
Sometimes it gets so much I feel like
letting go.
Sometimes it gets so hard, I feel like
letting it go.
Sometimes it gets so goddamn hard I feel
like letting it all go.
Letting it all go.
I ran away and went looking for you, back
to Culver City and the old neighborhood.
Need to know if you were really gone.
Need to know if you were gone for good.
I ran through the projects at night,
hide in the dark from my friends in the
light.
Hide from my brother-in-law, hide from
the things he'd say.
Said you weren't losing your mind, he
said you just needed a rest.
He said you would be coming home soon,
said the doctors there would know what's
best.
Said that maybe I could go live with them
awhile.
I know the truth about you. I know the
truth.
Mama, they woke me up.
I was just eight years old.
Sometimes it gets so hard, I feel like
letting it go.
Sometimes it gets so hard, I feel like
letting it all go.
Letting it all go.
Like A California King
I see you have made yourself a brand new
life.
Such a cool blue star with a bright new
shine.
I see you wearing your checkered past,
just like a shining suit of gold.
I know you think you look so special.
I am told you have found yourself a brand
new time.
Watch the world stand still as the years
go by.
I know you think you are new and different,
but it makes no sense to me.
There is nothing new about you, just another
self-made man.
There is nothing new that I can see. Enjoy
it while you can. I know you think you look so special.
What makes you think you are so special?
What makes you think you are unique?
I see you smile and I get angry as I watch
you go colossal like a California king.
(All these Californians, coming down here
and changing everything.
They're just a bunch of carpet-baggers
and I'd wish they'd all just go.)
I hear you gave the world a brand new voice,
such a happy melody with a new wave whine.
Yeah, I see you hide behind your own noise.
I think I've seen enough.
I will find you in the crowded room, I
will knock you off your feet.
I will burn you just like teenage love,
I will eat you just like meat.
I will break you into pieces, hold you
up for all the world to see.
What makes you think you are better than
me?
What makes you think you're better?
What makes you think you are complete?
What makes you think you are the only
one immune to falling down?
Why can't you see?
I see you fall and I get happy.
I will watch you burn like fire,
I will watch you burn like a California
king.
Hating You For Christmas
- hidden track
Thanks for the Christmas card.
I don't want to hear about your new job
now,
I don't want to hear about your new boyfriend.
I don't want to hear about it all working
out for you.No, I don't want to hear it now.
I don't want to hear about your swinging
new place,
I don't want to hear how everyone thinks
it's great.
I just want to sit in our apartment and
hate you.
Yes, I will be hating you for Christmas.
You can have the Christmas tree.
Remember when we bought it at the store
down the street?
Remember when I found that cheesy color
wheel?
I don't want to think about your eyes
or your white skin.
No, I don't want to think about it.
I don't want to think about last year
at your dad's.
Said it was the best sex that we both
ever had.
I don't want to think about your face
and your soft hair.
I will be hating you for Christmas.
I must be losing my mind,
there's gotta be a better way to deal
with the pain.
There's gotta be a better way to deal
with the hate.
Wish that I could find some way to make
you go away.
Wish that I could have a drink and make
you fade.
Wish that I could have myself a drink
and make you fade.
I wish that I could have a drink and make
you go away.
Yeah, make you go away.
Wish that I could make you go away.
I will be hating you for Christmas.
Thanks for the Christmas card.